Well hello there, internet! :)
About two months ago, I stayed up late with a friend and we talked about our lives and different topics that were on our minds until the wee hours of the night. Things that stuck with me were: Inhibitions. Being free. Happiness.
This dear friend opened my eyes to the life that is possible when we let go of our inhibitions and our fear of judgement... you know... real life. I have always been a little afraid of being weird. In middle school, a boy asked me "why are you so weird" and for a long long time I tried to hold in or even mask my "weirdness" with productivity, politeness, and the idea that I could be perfect.
Little did I know, perfect is impossible. For years, I fought an empty fight: the fight to be perfect. Here I am to say.... it is a freakin' waste of time!
What is weird? To most, it is that feeling when things get so awkward that you don't know what to say. To me, weird is life. Life is wonderfully messy. It is impossible to become a tidy little packaged lady with 100% productivity. Trust me, it's impossible. I've tried and successfully failed. I am a messy little package and the string that holds me together comes untied sometimes, but that's okay.
Slowly, I am letting go of these inhibitions. It's okay to be a little bit crazy sometimes, because it's no fun to be a neatly bound package. Learn to accept it now before you waste valuable years of your life. Being weird and [accepting it] is truly an art.
Loved this post! I could relate with you 100% . . . Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteSo truee(:
ReplyDeletei'm proud to know the weird Sidney. :)
ReplyDelete"WOWWWW THIS IS SO HIP!" <3
Was that friend Blovat?
ReplyDeletehe just LOOOOOOOVES to talk to you
nahh, it was Kayla Bishop :)
ReplyDeleteA large part of growing up is the discovery that everyone is a little weird and that’s a good thing. How boring would the world be if no one was weird? Warren Buffett is weird. Bill Gates is weird. Donald Trump is weird. Being weird can be a very very good thing.
ReplyDeleteSidney, you're weird is a good weird.
ReplyDeleteAgree with the Gramps, but don't follow Trump. He has AWFUL hair.
You're a funny girl to be worried about being weird :0) Have you looked around your family tree? It was inevitable! You come from a long line of truly fabulous weird people, but who doesn't? Being your mom, I don't go back in time and remember all the good grades or perfect anythings, I remember the "funny walk" you started to do as a baby and how you growled instead of talked. I remember finding you at the top of the closet in wearing ice skates, a tutu, bikini top and cowboy hat when you were only 2. It's all those things you are remembered, cherished and loved by mommy for. I have never wanted a "perfectly" dull daughter, I wanted my silly Siddy! Love, Mommy
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