Fields of glory.

Sometimes I fall asleep in the shower. Today was just one of those kind of days. On Mondays, I usually feel a little bit depressed.... each week I go to school, I work, I eat, I sleep. That's all. Saturdays and Sundays are my days off. Then the cycle restarts and it's Monday again. I can't help but feel like I am wasting time.

As I sit in class, I usually daydream about many different things. A recurring daydream is running through fields of overgrown grass, smiling at the sun and fully enjoying life... every single second of it. Then I resurface. I am in class... math class... the teacher is talking about graphing and y-intercepts. I am definitely not running through fields of glory. I am sitting in a cold room, sitting on a hard chair, expected to cram (seemingly) useless information into my brain.

Today was different. Today I had an epiphany. To me, it is so important that I make my life a life of purpose in everything that I do. Areas that don't seem to serve a "purpose".... I will bring purpose to them. Math is big for me, i've never been good at it. Or even okay at it. We are 3 weeks into the semester and I have a 91%. That is up 35% from last semester. I am thrilled with an A-. But that's not my best. I want to pour my hear into it. I want to get an A+. I want to be the absolute best that I can be. I want to do my best, and not just get by. In everything.

No more wasting time.

I am done waiting for something to come along and make me happy. I am just going to be happy. Just because. Just because I am a child of God. Just because every day is a blessing (even Mondays).

I've decided that I am going to show up to my life. Every moment of it. I am going to be my best. I am going to do more than just get by. I can create my own fields of glory.